quite some times nv blog le due to connection problem n dun wanna mentioned anythin abt him in my blog.. hav been tinkin.. wat i hav done izzit worth it.. bcoz of him.. i sacrifice (duno correct ma) quite alot le.. my frenz left mi one by one.. bcoz of him.. i told myself.. nvm is like tt de.. he said when quarrel.. one muz b fire.. another water.. i learnt tt n i did it.. i shld hav leave long ago but wats holding mi back was i still hav feelings for him.. tts y i went back to him.. he worth loving ma?? i can said no coz he nv changed.. wateva i said de is bullshit.. i'm reali tired.. he wan mi to behave myself as got bf le.. he asked mi tt a few days ago onli.. i threw back e ques to him.. did u behaved urself?? he said nv.. den wats e point tt i muz behave myself while my bf dun behave himself.. i can ren but den got limit de lehz.. i live for 17 yrs le but i nv met such a person b4.. he reali too much.. haiz.. i'm numb le.. i tink i hav done enough le.. it's over wat i expected.. i can say tt he's not e one i wan.. i'm reali too tired le.. after so many quarrels abt e matter.. still nth changed in him.. he still went back to do tt.. i reali given up hope on him le.. he wan anithin back to him juz go ahead but let mi go n leave mi alone.. wat i had done n sacrifice.. after so many quarrels.. given chances again n again.. given trust again n again.. still i got back e same thing.. disappoint mi again n again.. i felt myself so 2pid for being such soft-hearted n naive.. given chances again n again.. given trust again n again.. wanna check tis n tt.. i hav no privacy at all.. hao ting shi say "care" but den actually he dun trust mi.. i was wondering he reali noe how n wat to do in a r/s a not.. being unfaithful seems so right to him.. wat he had done.. he dun seems to feel guilty at all.. bcoz of him.. being scolded as a bitch, 3rd party, spoil other r/s, ppl come find mi troubles n i dun even noe who is it n wateva shit de.. it seems like my life is in danger.. he nv noe how scare i m.. wo ye ren le.. wats more he wan.. i reali duno lehz.. reali drive mi crazy.. sometimes reali wanna brust out crying.. i felt myself no life at all.. juz like a dead person.. when can i b back myself??